Best Friends

What defines a best friend?

What are the requirements to be a good best friend?

How many hours a week does it entail?

Stupid questions that have no answers.

A best friend is not defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they hang out together.

It is not defined by how many sleepovers they gossip at, or how many inside jokes they have.

There are no requirements or laws that state that a good best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every little detail.

A best friend is a matter of opinion.

It is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things.

It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst, it is the person who saves you when you didn't even notice that you needed saving, mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming.

-Scriptedrama.bs.com

Life and time is not to be wasted anyhow anyhow now. I've wasted enough and enough is enough.

Anw watching the F1! Laughing @ Hamilton because on the tv screen its HAM, you know like HAM, those that you eat? hahhahahhaha

I must stop thinking that way. It's been weeks. Glad i finally let it out of my chest!!!

Nica's back in Aussie! Damn fast ok! ):

Idk what else to blog. I don't want to rant here because it's so ... rubbish-y.

Need to get that stress off me. Not even a month to O's. Its getting closer and closer, creeping towards us.

Big big big plans after o's. Number 1. ROB A DAMN BANK TO FINANCE ALL MY NEEDS. Yeah. No number 1, no money, no needs. Saddddddd!! Im not planning to get a job either, I rather beg on the streets, pretending that i am homeless. As if money would drop from the sky. Har har.

Back to F1. ttfn!

DAMN pissed because i didnt receive any facebook email notifications? Anyone with the same problem?

OK NVM solved it yay damn happy :D

x x x

I put a brake on my studies and finished two books in two days ^^

Gonna pass the book to Tzuying tmr ^^

I found solace when I'm reading. Away from o's, away from reality, away from unhappy things, away from you perhaps?

Anw gotta jet i got 8 more qns for chem!!

I opened this page not knowing what to write, because (as usual) a million and one things are going through my head. One comes in before I could process the other. & mind you, all of them are NOT related to O's, not like i'm memorizing any notes or whatever.

Not going to dwell on O's because it only makes me !@#@$#%~~~@##!$#$#@%$^%&^!!!!!!!

Am feeling like shit. Hate it when reality hit me hard, right smack on my face. There's so much i want to help, but there's so little i can do. It's time i let em' loose. Eventually like a spring, it will come back to me. Eventually.

I need a lot of needs.

Kor is going to tabao Macs back. I want something light, not heavy, so i told him McNuggets! then i added: "Upsize so got shaker fries". Ironic much!!! -.-

Hey Nica, i hope you see this. please know that i am here for you okay, my ears and shoulders are more than ready. don't matter if you're in yishun or not. its a hard time for you right now eh? glad that you're contactable now ^^ you know that you can reach me via phone esp now that you've got your line :) so much i want to say, hope to see you real soon kk xoxo *hugs*

x x x

Quick post: I never had the intention to upload photos. Shall pass my thumbdrive to Shermin See Qi Qi so that she can upload to her blog/Facebook then she'll tag everyone aka spam our inbox (& even knowing so, we never edit our email notifications no matter how much we hate those emails HAHAHA) and then deep down in my heart I'll be thanking her a lot a lot because its all up on Facebook for the whole world to see ^^

So today is (Y).

Vivo to celebrate Tay's sweet 16th with bday gal, Jy, Clarissa, Shermin = GV trying to sneak into NC16 movies (not that i'm not 16!!) + LJS + EMIKO Art (?) + BANDSLAM (Y)(Y)(Y) + Camwhore!

Then black pepper crab for dinner for the 3rd consecutive week!! SIAO and SHIOK or not!? (Y)(Y)(Y)

Your heart is not with me. When will it ever be?

Sept holidays = NO holiday!!! Damn you o's.

I want to sleep. Bye and ciao!

x x x

Last words

Its those days where the damn weather is so damn shiok you wish you're not gonna wake up, sleep forever and ever. I bet you wouldn't even have nightmares, oh yeah.

I wish for the same weather tomorrow.

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"How are you, my friend? Can I have you back? I'd missed you. My door is always open. I just don't see you coming through that door as often as before. Or did you lose the way to the door? Did you have time, or the lack of it, to find that door? What about the windows, the other openings? Did you see it? Can you find it? Something is missing, and I want to find it. I need it back.

(My friend, you prolly wouldn't even read it in the first place.)

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To make up for the lack of class photos, gonna take tons and tons tmrrrrr, don't matter what we're wearing, as long as the heart is there, as long as the unity is there, as long as we're still bonded as before. We're definitely NOT as bonded as before, why is that so? We're only left with 2 months, can we make these 2 months, more loving, more caring, more fun, joy and laughter?

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Okay so i still have a million and one things to pen down. It helps to have a notebook, Twitter, a blog. I just hope that when i look back at these, I am able to identify, with what I was feeling/thinking at that point in time. These are going to be my last words for a while. I don't even want to update my tumblr anymore. It's getting too much - shouldn't have liked so many things at once. Only jonasvault(!!!!! must follow for all JB fans!!), fuckyeah-(fillintheblank), quotewhore and blogsecret. The rest are redundant, irrelevant, useless, no link, no point and not helping me get my A1s.

A1s, you better belong to me. I'm going to own you, get you, laminate you. I can see it. It's so clear. You're going to appear on my results slip. You're going to be like a paper clip, attracted to the big magnet - my name on that result slip. And then with you, i'mma rock the world!!

Bye world, ttfn!

x x x

A million and one things running through my head (read: super duper short attention span). Can't seem to pen them down though. Must be that I wrote too much journal alr!!

Went back to Choir today to get our certs! Mr Ngian's speech damn touching omg! Hope the juniors like what Mw gave em :)

Then mrt-ed home with Mw, luv ya xoxo

Need to reassure myself that i REALLY REALLY REALLY want my distinctions for Chi the 2nd time i'm taking it. My goals had never seemed so near to reach, all i can see is a blurry line somewhere.

I CANNOT LOSE FAITH AH. NEED TO GET MY VISIOB BACK!!!! Oh prelims ah prelims..

Gonna curl up in bed with Jong's book and sleep early tonight, sounds like a damn great plan :)

Nights homiezzz

x x x

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG I'M FINALLY DONE WITH MY JOURNALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Huge sigh of relief!!!!!!!

Now i need to focus on my chinese prelims on Sat, AMaths, Sciences, and basically all the other subjects!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3 days lehhhhhhhhhh eh no, 4 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I swear I cannot do journalism at the rate im thinking. (i think i type considerably quite fast alr w/o looking at the key board so i don't think its the typing, more of putting my thoughts into words hahaha)

OKAY CIAO !!!!!!!

x x x

I am super duper proud of myself on one hand to make considerable progress for my journals, but on the other, i'm neglecting all my other work, oh damn. But if i were to balance myself, i would have to hand up my journals weeeeks later lol.

So for my journals, I'm left with.. 2007, 2008, and 2009 maybe not so much because its been mostly written in all my other journals lol.

I may or may not be able to finish it by Thurs. HOPE HOPE!!

& I can't take it if the com crash again. I know it wasn't Mum's fault because she just happen to sweep the floor under the com's table and it sort of triggered the wire and whatever's under the table and it all happened so quick the next thing i know is the com restarted!!!! when i hadn't saved my journal!!! (thank god its been retrieved but its not the latest version so.. nvm i retyped alr). & then it sort of hanged and i restarted it the inproper way so i hope its not gonna shorten the lifespan of the com. any windows XP i've come across has never lived up to more than 3 years. this com is only 2 years? don't die please, or at least save everything important first!!! i dont want to lose my sec 3 and 4s photos too!! i beg you!!

I wonder if I really were to write a piece of news. HAHA @ the thought of it because imagine im only recounting past events and i already took so long, what about those vvvv recent news, does this mean that when ppl read them they will only read it days laterrrr because i couldn't typed it fast enough or i couldn't think fast enough to write it? omg can't imagine at all lol i prolly would be out of job/fired/sacked oh yeah.

My eyelids touching each other alr zzzz

x x x

I kept thinking I lost ALL of my sec 1 and 2 photos because you know, com crash, laptop crash, it wasn't backed up, and then you know what?!?!?!?!? Its still in my old blogs.... :O OMGGGG!!!!!!!

3-4 years alr, didn't even realise WE changed so much!!! OMG

I tell you, my skin is crawling!!!! I'm still cringing looking at em?! lololololol.

How to continue my journal like that?!

But you're so hypnotising

Before I fall too fast

Kiss me quick

Make it last

So i can feel how badly this will hurt me

When you say good bye

Keep it sweet

Keep it slow

Let the future pass

Don't let go

Tonight i could fall too soon to this beautiful moonlight

But you're so hypnotizing

You've got me laughing while i sing

You've got me smiling in my sleep

I can see this unraveling

And your love is where im falling

So please don't catch me

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This is the video I was telling Mw about during recess!!
KAYLX SEE THIS TOOOO! :D
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE ♥♥♥

HOPE

Am STILL writing my July journal. I get that sense of peace when I'm writing journals. It keep me upbeat, and not all melancholy like here. Maybe because the journals have a purpose? and dirtymasquerade is like.. oh crap junk stuffs whatever bullshit. But its not. Its more personal to a certain extent. More hay-wire when it comes to jotting down my thoughts. Hmmm

Hope i can finish my July journal by today. HOPE HOPE!!

Sorry Darl for not being able to make it to your flea!!! Yesterday i was being lazy trying to do a lil of AMaths and a lil of Chem and watching JONAS (keke :B), while today i had hw (eeek) to do.. But glad I met you on Friday and had talks and more talks over shaker fries (!!!) and i think we ran out of things to say (rmb the pauses in between hahaha) HOPE your sale is good! See you sooonn!! luv ya xoxo

Oh yeah baby

"This life is what you make it.

No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes.

It’s a universal truth.

But the good part is, you get to decide how you’re gonna mess it up."

— Marilyn Monroe (via quotewhore)

Procrastination is the bane of my life. Period.

TGIF.

Short post:

4e2 PEEPS, WITH ANY CLASS PHOTOS PLEASE SEND IT TO ME VIA EMAIL!

(MIGHT NOT BE USING MSN AT ALL SO EMAIL WOULD BE BEST! THX)

ITS FOR THE E-YEARBOOK!

I DON'T KNOW WHEN DO I NEED TO HAND IN THE PHOTOS AND ALL, SO PLEASE SEND IT TO ME ASAP!

THANK YOU ALL SOOO MUCH!

x x x

HAHAHA SHERMIN SEE QI QI LOOK HERE my plan epic fail, walao -.- thought you are soooo against subway!!!! Then you had it for dinner also!! -.- *rolls eyes and flings hair* hate die you laaaaaaaaaa go die you also!!! later fat die you and then i LAUGH DIE MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA nope i will not let you have the last laugh MUAHAHAHAHA

okay so besides Subway i had Kiliney for dinner! I remembered Darl wanted to go there for breakfast one time but ended up we didn't eh? we still should though! :)

THEN THE SHIOK-EST - ICC!!!!!!!!!! Whoohooo double scoop of chocolate hershey's and oreos &cream and then the mixed-in was KINDER BEUNO :D wheeee still my fave, so chocolateyyyy!

Okay damn good food this weeeek :D so satisfied omg omg omg :D

Kay i hope see qi qi burst her blood vessels (direct translation from: bao xue guan hahahaha) from reading this post!! *laugh die*

x x x

Tumblr is fun! Follow me @boycottxxxlove.tumblr.com :D

Trying to work the RSS feeds, so that when i post here, my tumblr would be updated too!

JONAS whoohooo :D Sooo in love with weekends when there's JONAS!

Btw SEE QI QI DON'T LOOK HERE because the next thing i'm going to say is that..

I HAD SUBWAY TUNA FOR BRUNCH!!! :D Kekekekekekekekeke don't you feel like vomitting muahahahhahaha!

Okay tvvvvv is calling me bye bye

x x x

Self reflection time again, since everyone is out and the house is quite.. peaceful. But not my kind of peace.

I need peace. My definition of peace =

• non stop music playing, good music btw, those that are meaningful to me, means something to me, those that I can sing along to, those that i bop my head to, (need to create a super huge playlist for this)
• + No disturbance (good music is NOT disturbance in case you're wondering, it's goooood)
• + being sane
• + not stressed up by o's (a bit of stress motivates, a whole lot breeds inertia and the last thing i need is losing my momentum, if i have one to begin with)
• + guilty conscience not acting up
• + maintaining diplomatic relations (read: good terms) with my circle many-shapes of friends, everyone single one of you, you, you, and even Nica where you're in Aussieland and I don't even remember the last time we talked ):
• + while juggling with school work/revision/self-study/and more revision
• + quality sleep
• + the great escape from reality
• + love
• + my motivation & momentum to be on and green, not off and red.
• + NOT getting frustrated over subjects that I am weak in, mainly physics/ss/Lit/Chi (omg results on WED!!!)
• + Never to feel hungry ever again and i will only eat selectively (i.e. frog leg porridge haha)

& currently, I am not in peace because

• Listening to The All-American Rejects - Damn Girl now, favourite track from the new record and it reminds me of unhappy stuffs but i couldn't bear to change song
• I'm going crazyyyyyyyyyy
• Guilty conscience acting up because it's been an unproductive day (the only highlight was JONAS!!)
• My motivation and momentum is off and red
• No love no love
• Deprived of sleep
• I feel paranoid/stresssed up/insecure/confused/terrible/horrible/vegetable?
• I can never escape from o's, and i can never escape from reality
• I AM NOT STUDYING.

I want to know, am I putting unnecessarily stress on myself? I think the answer is yes. Because if I don't think about scoring that 10 points, i don't do it at all. I'm all talk and no action. It's just in my head. All the talk going in my head. No action. Thinking so much doesn't help me to get my 10 points. I NEED TO DO IT. I MUST DO IT.

My policy of isolation failed. Epic fail. Isolating myself doesn't help me to do my work. So what good does it do to isolate myself?!

Fail to plan, and plan to fail. But what if you planned and there were external factors that led you not to go according to plan?!?!?!?!?!?! Aren't you planning to fail that way too!??!??????

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I badly want to go Bangkok.

I want to score 10 points. THE OTHER THINGS CAN WAIT!!!

GO ME!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday was greattttt! Ate a lottttt!

Spent a bomb (usually i'd not spend that much) ON FOOD, GLORIOUS FOOD.

Gonna let the pictures do the talking when I get em' from Shermin :D It speaks volume!

SO: PRELIMS IS OVERRRRRR!!!!!!!!! That explains the break from Thursday to Friday, and a lil today.

Gonna do physics and a lil of SS? Or practise my Oral, hmmm.

JONASS (i hope, laterrrr)

GO ME!

x x x