I flunked my Amaths. I wasn't as devastated as when I got back my Chem & EMaths paper, maybe because I knew I'll fail AMaths, so no big surprises there. Now, I've got to try to stop leaving blanks for every question that I don't know how to do. It's sooooo stupid even though I still get method marks out of it. Damn pissed at my self because my EMaths is dropping too. Can't say I hate Maths now, yet I don't feel the joy in doing it.
The only papers I hadn't get back are English, SS & Lit. Hope they're not Bs also. Tsktsk.
Was supposed to go to Lavender to make my i/c with Sweetheart but after talking to Miss Leow (and her giving both of us lollipops) we just had to go for Choir. Damn stupid & Mama's mad at me because I've delayed it for so long and it wasn't my fault and neither is it anyone's and nope it's not Ms L or Choir's. Just blamed it on bad time management and planning.
Been snoozing alot in class today. All I had to do is lie on the table and close my eyes and hold my pen up so I look like I'm writing something, but actually I'm not, so gotcha, ya got fooled, didn't you. So everything the teachers said today are one ear in, one ear out. Couldn't even process it because my mind was off and red. It's only on and green during Pe, where Raffles won the games and Blue house had to do the chicken dance as a forfeit, hah.
Homeworks are piling up, & currently I'm letting them sit in a pile, in my file, in my Crumpler, collecting dust. Stress is building up and I'm definitely not your most attentive stewdent because the results of CT1s made me lose my confidence, by a whole lot. Sad to say, it's not motivating me to do better. See, this is why I'm still blogging here - No motivation to do anything!
Lack of sleep, lack of motivation, lack of drive. I'm wasting my life. Seriously.
Hitting the sack, bye
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